Happy Day~

今天好开心哦！^^也不知道是什么事，就只是看戏罢了吗？还是又想你了？想起你，真的是好开心哟。^^好爱你，如果在我身边多好！但是那戏，也给我不少欢乐哦！我也要像主角那样，要朝自己的目标前进哦！虽然路途艰难，努力就好！学业也好，事业也好，亲情也好，友情也好，爱情也好，加油哦！=D你也要加油哦！我等你哦！^^我爱你，佩君！xD

back, away from home...

Today, going back to a familiar place……sound so familiar to me, but differ from my hometown…..

A place which I need to go……A place which I am prepared to……

Thank you, for giving me chances~

Thank you, for giving me hope~

A lovely morning which I need to say good bye,

Sounds not so bad, but is hardly to accept the truth……

Time passed by……

So fast, but memorable.

A group of people waiting for me, in my new familiar place……

A group of people waiting for me, to come back as soon as possible……

Feel so sorry for leaving, and feel so sorry for staying……

What should I do?

I should smile, as I have a group of people……

Who care about me……

And whom I loved……

Thank you……people who loved me……

小君，能看见你，我已经很开心了。不知道为什么，我总是觉得，你以前喜欢过我。我给你的关心，也许不足够。也许不是你想要的。在茫茫的人海里，我却喜欢上你。当时的我，真的以为可以和你走下去。你的存在，真的为我的生命添加不少的幸福。以前的谈笑，可能对你来说没什么价值可言，可是我对你说的，真心只想你开心。记得你唯一一次靠在我的肩膀吗？竟然是伤心的时候。我答应过我自己，不会让你哭。可是当时却不知所措。看见你的泪水，我的心很痛，很痛！就只是那三秒钟，你离开了。如果可以再从来，可以让我拥抱你一辈子吗？呵呵~你还真得，很好，很好！至少我不后悔，爱上你这个傻瓜。^^这次，不要再是散场的拥抱，我承受不起。下一次，如果再和你拥抱，要是一辈子的约定。^^虽然我不是你的理想对象，但至少我爱你！是真的！很想跟你在一起。我爱你，等你！=）

今天~

今天，我突然的觉得天气很热。刚刚从睡梦中惊醒，觉得有点闷热。人家都说心烦气躁，原来是真的。连老天爷都不帮我了。难得想睡一觉，忘记所有的烦恼，但还是办不到。也许闷热的感觉，别人并不知道。每个人都在为自己的事而烦恼，有的平静面对，有的却不知所措。我试问自己，我的烦恼会比得上别人的烦恼吗？世上每一个人，都必定会经历我所遇到的烦恼。然而会是一样的感觉吗？如果不一样，为何看见那么多的文章都是如此？每个人写出来的心情必定有共同点。起伏的差距，那么的大，那么的小。醒来想到了手机，看见了那荧幕的画面，手指开始打上几行无谓的字母。想用尽办法，把所有的感觉都一一打上，但有哪来的时间和耐力？当听见，累了两个字，只好说去休息吧！真的是无能为力，难到累了就不休息吗？还是在避开一些小小的问号？想打多几个字，却删除走掉。原来，真的很累了。走在那道路上，眼睛很累，四肢很累，连脑袋也很累。走着走着，只有个愿意陪伴我的人跟我走着。对我来说，很开心，但也是一个从前我办不到的遗憾。以前的愿望，终于实现了。可是为何就要等到一年后才实现?我真的很幸福，给了我这份幸福。但我不想再重复同样的等待，又等待明年的一年。也不知道等待的问号有多少。空虚的心在开心地笑，智慧大脑也共鸣的消。消除着那连词，消除着那名号。挣扎着自由，却无心地锁好。昨天看到一部戏，所谓的烦恼丝，人才会欢笑。想抛开一切的烦恼，空荡的一切，又从何谈好？幸运的，我身边还有几位真心的祝福我，真心的体贴关怀着我。我的烦恼，也对我特别好。很特别，会给我冲劲去努力。也会让我厌倦，让我愁劳。原来，我是身在福中不知福。冷静下来吧！我不知道可否办到。

只愿对我太好，也幸福走好。感觉上，今天真好！但，明天会更好！

见到你的那一分钟，是对的吗？你给我的反应，很温暖，也好冷淡。对，你在赶时间，我没怪你。可是为什么我总觉得，你开始远了。远远的在那儿，跟我挥手，是因为你看见未来了吗？手里的小纸条，握了好久，到最后还没把手伸出，你就走了。走向未来了吗？我好孤独，好想有个人陪。每天的思念，就只属于灰烬。梦里我住了你的手，起来却发现就只是空气。对不起，真的不知道自己需要些什么。看见你的那一刻，短暂的那一分钟，就不能停留多一秒吗？我还想着，当天的拥抱，如果我没有离开，你会怎样呢？很想流泪，很想不放手。一刹那想起了，原来当天只是散场的拥抱。 你现在若在我身边多好。面对这一切，也许真的是我的弱点。不敢面对的缩头乌龟，又几时再振作起来，慢慢走向终点呢?就不能爱我一分钟吗？也许每天一秒，也可以维持两个月。呵呵…对不起，爱傻了你。

无法拥有，远方的思念。
只能把手举起来，伸向广阔的天空。
以为捉住了那仿佛你化身的白云。
却只捉住了空气中的回忆。
淡淡的，模糊了~
傻傻的，爱你！

Can you ?

A person would laugh for love, and a person would cry for being love. But a person would always smile in front of others for love. What a fake! Situations like this always occur and will not stop. A true friend will be always beside to help. I have many friends who willing to help me. But they have their own problems too. They don’t really trust in their friendship. This is because they have been hurt before. 

Actually a true friendship is not depending on how long time you spend with them, is being caring them. The type of caring, do not misunderstood, a caring can be just a few words just to make people feel that you still have him/she as your friend. We are very lucky, as we have bunch of friends. Although sometimes you think this situation is not the reality, but why not just trust it once? Maybe you have tried once, why not just giving yourself another chance to accept them? 

You may think that such caring is not enough. Do not ever try to reach the top of the mountain before you explore and discover the condition of the mountain. That’s impossible! If you have a helicopter, is also difficult for you as you don’t know the mountain well. And one more, climbing mountain is not easy. There are rocks and mud all along the road. Be careful! Hurts are required when climbing the mountain. There are no such things that climbing the mountain safely. You will hurt your legs and hands when you are climbing on stones and rocks. You will hurt your body when you try overcoming the slippery mud road. And there are still some unsuspected substance such as snakes and bears in the forest. Be strong! A person, who dying for top of the mountain, will stand up again. Try again! Once not enough, then another try! 

In mountain, there could be landslides. It is just like telling you to stop. Such of hurt feelings come to you. You ask yourself, do I really can’t reach the top of the mountain? No! do not ever think in such ways. There are words which do not purposely hurt you and stop you. Is just yourself. Is you, who think so. A word evil can be just a word. Are you really evil? If you are born evil, then why you have such energy, time and the willing to climb up the mountain? A person who does not have any goals is evil, as just know how to eat and sleep. You are not, my friend! You tried hard, I notice that. Evil? You say you are joking, then can it be just a joke instead? Why don’t you think so? Words can be twisted. And you really think it too serious. People say you think something too serious, is true! The loss of confidence in yourself, you are joking and people joke too, then why are you so serious? 

Time is needed. To get to the top, is not easy. But is not impossible! A true friend and a close friend, they sometimes might hurt you. However, they will not leave you. How to tighten up the bond? Just use some ropes? Or use some chemical reactions? Just use your heart. Smile from the bottom of the heart to others will do. An unfamiliar topic to you. You will stay quiet in a corner. Yes, is true that you do not know what to say. Sometimes just ask some questions, shout to those peoples who climb half way on the mountain. Ask them how to climb? Ask more questions, can I join you all? Ask more, to join you all what I need to do? So, just ask! You know what is ask? You probably can join them as you have a sincere heart to ask what is happening. The person, who I know last time, is willing to ask any questions and take challenges. Why can’t you apply it on climbing mountain? You scare you will fall, again. But just stop when you feel pain, will you be successful? 

The main point, trust in others. Trust yourself too. Hello my friend! The words I say, is it helpful? I don’t know. But what I know, I am just concern about you, my friend! And these are just some words. Is just words! You need to think it again and again. But what I am telling you is true, because the mountain you have discovered last time, will give you a guide to climb a higher mountain. And your foot prints will always stick on the path ways to the top of the mountain. So? Why do you need to stress yourself using phases such as what is passed is already past? Everything will change in the world. But friendship will not change if you still concern about it. Like what I say, just a small care and smile will do. Do not need too much of flowers or gifts as in love. In friendship, you just need hands and legs, to give some help to others and walk towards others. Can you?

心境

有些东西经过了才会懂。有些事伤过了才会理解。有些问题永远都不会明白。想那么多，可以把雨天变成晴天吗？别人说，雨后自然会天晴。这大雨几时又会停呢？我很怕！水灾会来临吗？我很担心，会淹没自己吗？淹没了，会有船子接待我吗？这华丽的都市又会怎样啊?刚刚起好的建筑物会因腐蚀崩裂吗？玻璃的城墙倒塌会刺伤我吗？

不要下雨了，好吗？天，我求你了！放过这世界吧！难道就没听过物极必反这道理吗？我明白，已经太迟了。就给我一个机会补偿，好吗？求你了，至少要在水灾来临之前，让她先登上高峰。至少在那里，看下去是片美丽的海洋。

向外奔跑吧！向新世界说你好，向旧世界说再见。河水泛滥，不再留下任何残迹。原来她不在这世界里，我安心多了。但同时，这世界不再属于她了。原来这一切只发生在我的世界里。我还是想太多了。

但如果这世界变回从前，你会回来在这儿，建立新世界吗？呵呵…希望吧！一直希望着，回来和我一起建立心的世界。

你不是

你不再是调皮撒娇的人，

你不再是有话直说的人，

你不再是我可以坦白面对的人，

也不再是我可以在乎的人。

加油！因为我不是牵着你的手的人。

加油！因为我不是你靠拢的那个人。

加油！因为我不是占据你回忆的人。

加油！因为我不是你歌词中的名人。

 

对不起，我不能隐身自己。

对不起，我不能控制情绪。

对不起，我不能坐视不理。

对不起，我伤害不了自己。

因为我爱我自己！

所以把你锁在心牢里。

你是，我爱不到的人。

我是，用一辈子等你的人。

但我不是，可以爱你一辈子的人。

因为你是，不在我身边的人。

可是你永远是，我最爱的女人。
希望你，回来。

最近，怎么啦？疯狂的过了，也平淡的走了。平坦的路，小小的石路，我都走过了。

下一段，是条更漫长的路。要走上这山坡，是要懂得考验的。走过的路，留下了脚步。走过的路，没有约束。但这次，我要留下脚步，也要太阳公公为我作证，那两双小手的倒影。

留下了我和她一起上山的证据。

我笑了

你每天对着我说话，都是笑嘻嘻的。我听见了你那呼吸的声音，空气中的潮湿却出卖了你。说起话来，声音还是如此的温柔，如此的动听。但从你口中说出一句：“还好呀！呵呵！”多么的逞强！我回想，对我的微笑是不是有什么意义？我听得见，你那心中的腾血在流动。在谈天的当儿，有股热情也有股冷淡在你心中划过。流汗了，热得不想再受伤害，却用言语安慰自己。发抖了，冷得毛骨悚然似的，但只说谎掩盖事实。你真的还好吗？我不懂得安慰，也不懂得分析。你在我面前，却显得是为了我这位懦弱的人，在努力着。努力着让我安心，努力着让我清醒。我却陶醉在你的声中，但却不知那些是真实的话语。那些对我来说，当时是些甜言蜜语，也是好听的歌谣。我总会把你说的话，写在心里。我在心中刻下日期，在心中写日记。每天翻阅那日记，写下新的日期。但过后发现，翻阅看见的都只是回忆。当时的墨水都干了，刻刀都钝了。新的一页，新的日期，只用白漆给涂了上去。尝试再刻下一个字。钝刀刻华语字，也太难了吧！更不用说要刻上那只是简简单单的三个字。一个不小心还会刻破了，弄花了记忆。有一天流血了，不痛，可却是酸酸的。怎么啦？难道这，就是笑容的代价吗？从你的声音，听得见我的生命，看见我的天堂，偏偏奇怪的少了，不知道什么。是我的幻觉吗？现在与你聊天，是真的很开心。你终于笑了，在我面前笑了。呵呵！笑了？也许这是上天给我的使命，再次让你幸福。用上了语言，用上了笑容，也用上了感情。但这次，我只能以语言让你幸福，让你在嘴边挂上笑容，让你在心田听见了温暖。因为我不配再次在你面前用上我的手，为你填满心中那一页页，空白的句子。当时为什么感觉酸酸的？我只能说，当天我口中，喝下太多醋了。呵呵！我终于笑了。也知道你为什么，笑了。

棋局之中本来就是欺欺诈诈的。用上脑子才可取得胜利。再加上努力练习，眼力观察，才可百战百胜。偏偏我是个小兵，多我一个不多，少我一个不少。可是我这颗棋子却少了一个合得来的棋者，没把棋下好。就算要小兵牺牲，也至少要光荣值得才对！小兵也会有雄大的梦想，伟大的自气呀!牺牲了还充满希望，带着笑容离开。鞠躬尽瘁。难道有想过要牺牲吗？选择牺牲也是为了大局着想。傻瓜！当然也希望可以以率赢敌，光荣满怀。偏偏棋子运用不佳，和其他的棋子用得不适当。少了车马炮助阵，小兵有何用处啊？除了当顶剑牌，还有吗？那更不用说，又哪来的赢局？又哪来的胜利？还有小率发挥的余地吗？原来天时地利人和是不可少的。难道就不能一个错误，飞将过河吗?少之又少呀！